Well I haven’t been writing very much mostly cause I think I should have these awesome stories to tell with call backs and all the other write things, really I’m no write I’m just a dude with alot of stories and I like to share them. So fuck proper posture and even trying (which should be obious from my last few post). Na I’ll go raw emotion and figure it out later. I do this for me not the reader, I do need to need to make it sorta understandable. I’ll try! This moment I caught was a dude asking a gal to marry him tonight. I just happened to be taking pictures and caught what was going on. Sure enought the guy got out of the mini van and asked the girl to marry him. She was all teary eyed and the stuff along with that. It was sorta sweet sharing that moment but I was stoked the offered me some cheep wine. Yeah I typed that and made myself laugh, it is just one of those things….I always find myself in the most fucked up places even if I don’t try. I guess cause I’m a social butterfly, that stupid shit has almost got me killed but dam it makes for good stories. After all is life life if it is never lived. If you want a big house and a big TV and money in the bank well there are ways to that, or do you want one hella story. I chose story, it makes me laugh. When I have emptiness I have all these crazy ass things I’ve done that I can just laugh about. Like the one time I was in Barsolona Spain and was drinking beers at midnight looking at the train schedule and seeing a train going into Moscow. I sat there and laughed “wouldn’t that be a fucking hoot just to say fuck it and go to Moscow” I actually thought about it too, had I had more Bengies I may have done it.
Great news!!! I possibly have a date with this DIME in KC in two weeks when the whole “we can’t go anywhere” thing goes away. She has weird hair (weird to most people, to me it’s hair of an angel) and really white skin……Son of a bitch and to top it off she has a very thick almost can’t understand Hungarian accient. Could any one be more perfect. See I studied Russian and do quite well with other dialects, it makes me think more. Plus the woman is smart too. I really don’t see me with a US born woman at all…..AH snap the funny one would be if I got an Australian chick, see if i have drinks I sometimes go all aussie, now think about that those women are nothing to suffer and are down to kick ass, then my dumb ass with my fake ass accient. Mother fucker that would be epic!!!….sonunds fucking fun….really. Well so back to new girl. I sorta know the whole slavic region but they really don’t fall under that so really she isn’t a Bosian nor a Pole (oh by the way I have the most respect for Polish people, they are wicked awesome, they have fought the fuck out of commies and I don’t care for commies) I know they were ran by commies for a bit. Really ya know what she is like 9 years younger so I’m sure she don’t really fucking care. I wish for once I could get rid of this military brain. I’m just gonna go into this (hopefully we can meet at river market cause that’s MY, yes MY territory, its my Alamo, I can do anything there I feel, it’s my home) I’ve already told her I wanna move to NYC and yeah the east coast is a safe place for me but Alamo would be the river market. I know KC and Johnson county Kansas like I know every square inch of my hand. I can’t count the times I’ve got tears in my eyes seeing the sign saying welcome to Kansas…..fucking Kansas….really!!! This is true and very true it is. Just like Vermont will forever be linked to my daughter Raven. I guess the NYC thing is mine I have no emotional links to that, other than seeing the trade centers fall…but it’s mine I don’t share it with anyone, and it’s hella fun city. I did totally start to make reservations for October trip there to see if I like it the way i did. Im gonna set up some interviews too. So this is life of a life of a writer non writer, fuck the script. I did think what if new girl sweeps me away is that drive to move gonna be there…………..and honestly I do anything to have real love. But will I give up my dream, I mean fuck I;m already booking my trip and looking down the scope with a fine tooth comb. What really am I looking for an adventure or a forever woman. I think about it and I think “the world where I get fucked with the least and am sorta happy, that is where I wanna go” I sorta thought I’d move and well………there I would find it. How ever I’m never too stupid to see it in the Dorthy of wizard of oz light “you had the power the whole time” (ya know with the slippers) it could be right infront of me and I hope I’m not to blind to see it.
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