I was gonna delete my post from yesterday cause it was all random and just all over the place but so am I. I read something once and it said some people just do stuff and other people have an internal voice directing what should be done. Interesting right! I have a committee that tells me what to do, there are times some one takes the day off. This isn’t a split personality there are basically three but some sub charters. There is logic, he gets the problem solved, there is resolve and he gets it done, then there is goofy, zany ass and he keeps the whole package going, he gives us fun. I love him!!! The bastard is when zany and logic share the same space and then I’m a dick. Now when resolve and zany cross then you get Australian me and he is a working machine hoot. The only two that can’t cross is logic and zany. Logic knows zany fucked up his life and is not too happy about it, but (this is where it gets weird like daddy hitting mommy at the dinner table sorta bad) zany knows logic made bad choices and its really his fault but he has told him this NOW finally, and so stuff has been changing. Basically the guy now is the worker bee (I love bee’s btw). There isn’t like voices in my head or anything I’m not crazy I’m simply stating how my brain works, I thought this would be sorta fun to put this on print, maybe someone else has this. Oh and FOR THE LOVE OF GOD in no way would I ever even think of taking meds to stop this machine…..fucking fuck no, its been a good team since I was 7 after the ….well bad stuff….. Don’t fuck with something that works that would be wicked wrong. So the only issue is the serious guy wants to stop memories so he has a bit of booze and it works gang busters until zany guy want to come out. Well serious guy gets tired and goes to sleep then zany guy get ahold of all serious guys work and decides to have some fun. Sounds okay right, good prank! It’s fucking me!!!!! Like WTF!!! In the mean time worker guy is just sitting back and saying “dude couldn’t we just hit the gym or something”, yeah the poor bastard has really no part of the other two other than the supply of money. He does need serious dude to do cost and budget and he needs zany to keep him happy, and in the end it all works out. Except when serious dude (logic) dude drinks then awe fuck hide the kids, it’s not good. Every problem in my life is based on serious dude getting pissed and me and zany have to suffer….and suffer we have. He should never be able to drink booze at all. Freaking like memorial day many many moons ago he got us in a shit ton of trouble. I understand you seen some shit but us two guys are counting on you to hold it together fuck stick, you will be the reason we die cause of your stupid running from the past and trying to get away as fast as possible. We wanna leave too okay mate so just keep with us.
See what I did there I started talking to my self even when I was typing- I told you there was always a internal conversation going on………-…….. oh fucking snap, the reason why I wanted to do this post in the first place was to say the track close to me is a fucking bitching ass track and I’m gonna run the fuck out of it, I’m gonna challenge myself like I never have before I got a warm fuzzy felling about it. Fucking wow I even started of track. Ummmmm I have had a new thing in my head it’s a hampshire accent. Oh fuck yeah there is a ummmmmgod voice that leads the pack, and that’s what took over. Ya know this sounds crazy as can fucking be, I know I’m not alone, well techinically I am I’d really like a woman in my life. Hell after I wrote my book I talked to Missy the main girl every day when I was walking around and tell her how my day was, just as though if I was out traveling. I even wept when I wrote the end of that book (I died not her) I put everything into that trying to think of the conflicts as such a relationship could have. I really wanna get my new lap top and put it into print. That Missy was the main in the story. Maybe soon I’ll have the computer with in april so I’ll put all 326 pages to binary…shit that gonna be a task. I want zany to do it, he basically wrote the book, even in dire straights he kept us alive, dude that guy is a fucking bad ass, he kept us alive when serious dude wanted to kill us. So that crazy ass dude that gets us in raves and girls dancing in cages is in charge of the book. Of course I’ll have to edit then serious dude has to market, but we are all a team, rag tag is it is we are a team and we will do this. And of course I’ll be the one running. the other guys will stop by too….I’ve got ten years…………………………………………………………..go